Insomnia and strange goings on........

For anyone that has Fibromyalgia or lives with someone that has it you will relate to the things that I express in my blog.

I have not advertised to anyone that I am writing this blog. It is simply a way for me to get everything that rolls around in my head, out of my head so I can make a little more sense of what happens on a semi regular basis.

Sometimes I have not idea what is going on with my body. I find that I have strange reactions to things.
Reactions to stress are the major ones. The others can be as simple as a change in the weather, eating food that does not agree with me or simple things like doing to much during the day.

This evening I am suffering from  Insomnia, which has reared it's ugly head twice over the span of 7 days.
Tonight is a little different as along with the insomnia, I have developed a fist sized pocket of fluid on my right side sitting on my ribs.
So which ever way I try to lie in bed, I cannot get comfortable.

I hear my husband snoring away loudly in the bedroom whilst I continue to clock watch and see if I can get at least a little sleepy and try to bring down the pain level to at least a 4 so I can fall asleep.

I don't like my chances at this stage.

It is now 1am and at 9am I am supposed to take my 15 year old cat to the vet to have her stitches taken out. Maybe I might have had a little sleep prior to doing this.

My beautiful girl is 15 years old which is quite old for a meow meow. She has been a constant in my life and has got me through some tough times.
She has also had her fair share of health complaints over the last year or so.
She always is there for me. The days that I have been confined to my bed and really unwell she will jump up and lie beside me.
Giving her love and attention by gentle pats and her purring has quietly calmed me in times of absolute distress.

One cannot underestimate the devotion and unconditional love that an animal can give you....... even a CAT.
As we all know, dogs have masters and cat's have staff. LOL

One day I am hoping that this dreaded autoimmune disease goes into remission or simply disappears as quickly as the onset. I have heard of it happening and I just want it to happen sooner rather than later to me............................

I want to get my life back. I want to go back to work. I want to contribute positively in my life choices instead of having to deal with things on a day to day basis.
I want to have a social life again. I want to go out and see a band, I want to have more intimate times with my significant other. I want to go for longs walks, to go on holidays, to be in car for longer than 2 hours, or have to cut and run from events due to the fact that I have to lie down.

I want so much but at the same time so little.
I don't want a million dollars, I don't want to be famous.

I simply want my life back so I can enjoy the most precious things in it.